我很努力也很辛苦

我很讨厌自己总是这样。。我可以再做选择吗？？我真的很想哭！！
我可以不要管一切的事吗？哭泣或许是我唯一能发泄的方法。。我偏偏就是不想在她们面前哭。
我什么时候才能变得更坚强。。没心情已经不是第一天了。。

我的成绩并不如意，怎么办？
没关系，我还没用尽我的力量去打败它，不可以就这样认输！！！
我不奋气，我会抗议到底！！
我不相信我打不倒它。。哼！！！
我会加油的~干巴爹！！
阿扎~fight-ing。。
哈哈。。。

I dreamed last night,even it is a happy dream,but for me,it's a horror dream..
I dreamed that my grandma who past away for many years ago..I don't even see her when she has last breath..
In my dream,she combed and tied my hair during the preparation of my wedding dinner..I married an indian man and i wearing the traditional dress of indian(sari) for my wedding dinner..
In my dream,i do not ready to get marry with that man,and i cried for it the whole day,then grandma hugging me and tell me story,after listening her story,i cried loudly in her hugging..I missed her so much...
This is the worst dream i ever had..

Oh gosh,chinese new year is coming soon which bump to the valentine day in a very coincident unexpectation..This year valentine day will be the black valentine again for me..
I have never been going through the valentine day with anyone else before..
It is the worst date for me and it is sucks..
I tried my best to make things right,but it seems like nothing to be done here.. It makes me feel hopeless towards myself,many of my friends said that i am too looking down to myself instead of having full confidence to face any problems that come upon me..
Damn sucks...Shits happen anywhere and anytime without knowing of people..

我根本不想去讨厌任何一个朋友。。可是你给我的反应，让我很反感。。我不想这样。。作出那种反应的人，请你自己好好的反省，也想想自己身边朋友的感受！！你这样实在是太自私了。。
本来认为自己可以放开，可是还是不行。。要写出来，心情才会更好过。。

Oh my god...i don't know how to do my individual report la...damn shit la..What am i suppose to do now..oh no..really shits happened la..ahh..oh no..yeer..don't want like that la..i want to do my job,but its helpless..ahh..you know this paper is killing me now..oh damn..i don't know how to say..ahhh....its really tough la..oh please..is there anyone can help me..ahh...i'm freaking out now..i'm gonna sceaming out loud under my pillow..ahh gosh..what the hell is going on with me and my report..i gotta pass it up next Friday,oh please...help!!!!!!!

哈哈。终于如愿于偿，去了全马最高级兼超级贵的购物所-Pavillion 。
哎哟！！ 我不是去那边买名牌啦！！只是去那边帮朋友庆生。。我们去了旺角。。
哈哈。东西蛮好吃的。。嘻嘻。。那天的打扮得确实有点与众不同。。
哈哈。难怪同班朋友会觉得我怪怪的。。
真的是头一回有这样的打扮叻！！哈哈。。
寿星的蛋糕，漂亮吧！！
那天天气很冷，看我的打扮就知道啦！！