I had a bad dream~


I dreamed last night,even it is a happy dream,but for me,it's a horror dream..
I dreamed that my grandma who past away for many years ago..I don't even see her when she has last breath..
In my dream,she combed and tied my hair during the preparation of my wedding dinner..I married an indian man and i wearing the traditional dress of indian(sari) for my wedding dinner..
In my dream,i do not ready to get marry with that man,and i cried for it the whole day,then grandma hugging me and tell me story,after listening her story,i cried loudly in her hugging..I missed her so much...
This is the worst dream i ever had..

Worst date that i never been going through~

Oh gosh,chinese new year is coming soon which bump to the valentine day in a very coincident unexpectation..This year valentine day will be the black valentine again for me..
I have never been going through the valentine day with anyone else before..
It is the worst date for me and it is sucks..
I tried my best to make things right,but it seems like nothing to be done here.. It makes me feel hopeless towards myself,many of my friends said that i am too looking down to myself instead of having full confidence to face any problems that come upon me..
Damn sucks...Shits happen anywhere and anytime without knowing of people..